[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 234 - 233: Different Romance

Chapter 234: Chapter 233: Different Romance
Chapter 233: Different Romance
Han Suwen asked Su Mian if she still loved that man and unexpectedly said yes. There are nights when she had longed to find him again. It’s just that she never dared and had any courage to do it. She believed that there was no longer fate between them and it was only her unresolved love that will be forever buried.
Han Suwen tried to remember the pain that she had and looking at the longing inside her heart, he somehow remembered his longing too.
Her yearning was for the man she could never have, while his was for the freedom to live with his mother peacefully.
It was different in some way but the feelings are the same. A love filled with yearning for something that they can only contain inside their heart.
Thus, after practicing and practicing the song again, he was finally able to grasp the song entirely on his palm.
"I stayed all night staring above
With the endless yearning for love..."
Meanwhile, a spotlight also appeared on Shen Lou as he began his part.
"We’ve been seeing the same moon every night
Only that way will we think our eyes met..."
As for Shen Lou, he was totally clueless too from the start. Being frustrated by such fate, he sought information from one another but was only left speechless and sometimes even felt outrageous on what he gathered.
When Han Suwen returned and came back to tell him his new insights, he was still hesitant.
Is the longing he talked about can be called ’love’ that everyone talks about? Are they the same just because the feelings are the same?
Isn’t the Romance that this genre talking about is the literal romance itself? How can it be connected to how Han Suwen thought?
But later, when he asked Jiang Su, the latter smiled at him reassuringly.
"What’s the matter if it’s different?" he said. "The genre may be called romance but there’s no rule that you cannot interpret it to what you want. If that romance meant love filled with unspoken yearning and endless praying, the subject doesn’t matter as long as you understand why the song is created like this."
Jiang Su then asked him. "What about you, Classmate Shen? What are your unspoken feelings that bind you until now?"
What about him? Shen Lou remained silent.
If this kind of love was meant that way... then he has to.
Ever since Qin An told him about the new identity he possessed, that matter didn’t leave him. It dawned on him about the real case in this world. Mental pollution is something that restrains everyone in this world and only if he has the power like Qin An can he help.
Although Shen Lou left the family’s responsibility for him, that didn’t mean that it dampened his feelings for the world. He too wanted to be free from the resentment that chained them since forever.
At that moment, Shen Lou felt like his mind went easy. The burden of being too frustrated left him.
Right. He too has something that he yearns for.
He yearns for the freedom of living without the pain that everyone has to bear. He longed to reach that moment because he loved it.
Just like how Han Suwen felt, they are just the same with different subjects.
This is the romance that they desire.
"I see fear when there’s nothing but darkness at night
For I was hoping that the moon appears
So I can see you..."
When both finally have something to concentrate on, other matters are more easy for them. Lin Yu taught them how to put that yearn they had towards each other. It was awkward at first doing some close movement that required to be a bit intimate but the passion they felt while imagining the goals they wanted to express for this song, they were able to break the obstacle.
Right now, the audience could see the restraint from their eyes. Shen Lou and Han Suwen may be moving the same but the direction where their feet move was the opposite, making it look like they are walking far away from each other even when they tried to go close.
It was as if no matter how one took a step, the distance between them will never close.
However, the bright full moon above slowly turned into a shade of pink. Light pink dust from the moonlight shines and scattered all over the venue, making it more dreamy and mysterious.
And then finally, they suddenly stopped and faced one other. It was still the same wide distance from the start but they are now facing each other.
They also stopped singing and only the light tone from the piano remains.
Slowly, Han Suwen and Shen Lou start walking, closing the distance between them while staring straight at each other’s eyes.
"!!!"
This caused a loud squeal and gasped from the audience as they held their breath, afraid to break this sudden atmosphere.
Everyone can see the tension surrounding the two and the same emotions written on their eyes. Both filled with an eagerness to move forward and reach towards their goal— to be closer.
It was not until they were right in front that they stopped moving.
While the piano starts to fade, they both slowly raise their one hand but halt when it is in front of their chest, with palms facing the other as if they want to touch the other party intently. Their fingertips swayed a bit as if all the desire to reach was forcefully taken back.
The bright pink moon shines again and only when the pink ball of light floats between their hands that the piano stops with their performance officially ended.
The light seems to tell how their longing couldn’t be fulfilled and only with the moonlight can they reach each other.
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In the backstage, Qin An was watching silently at the performance with some unknown thoughts floating inside his mind.
He was staring at the hands that obviously looked like they wanted to move closer but could not. It was as if it’s just right in front of them to clasp but cannot.
For Qin An... it oddly looked familiar.
But he couldn’t figure it out. Why so?
"Anan, their performance is really good, aren’t they?" He Yan pooped up beside him that made him snap on his senses.
He nodded.
"I’m really nervous but seeing them motivates me." He Yan’s eyes were bright as he looked at the two with admiration. Brother Shen was someone whom he always looked up to and since he joined the competition, the person he admires became more.
Like Qin An, Han Suwen, Nan Moyi and others. He was really glad to meet them and became friends.
He will always remember this.
Seeing that Qin An was still busy, He Yan decided to go towards his partner and found Xing Ren on the corner.
"Why are you here? Nervous?" He asked worriedly for his friend.
Xing Ren smiled gently as always. "I’m fine, Yanyan."
"That’s good!" He patted his friend on the shoulder for encouragement and went away again to wait for Shen Lou’s arrival later.
He Yan left with his usual joyful steps, not knowing the gaze that was glued on him from his partner.
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