[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 236 - 235: Eclipse

Chapter 236: Chapter 235: Eclipse
Chapter 235: Eclipse
Since his refusal, He Yan gradually learned how to say no to others too. When he feels that he really does not like it from the bottom of his heart, he’ll say no to the other party. At first it was very uncomfortable. He saw many trainees now felt awkward with him and they aren’t that close anymore. It hurts but he also realized something.
They maybe just liked him because they wanted him.
That means they didn’t treat him as a friend, right? What an awful truth. But what can he do?
He secretly consulted this experience to Xu Xinyi again and gladly, the results were good and she told him to remember those realizations to put inside the song.
He has to remember the ’betrayal’, confusion and pain from this truth and imagine it in order to look at Xing Ren as someone he envies.
As he also contemplates those feelings everyday, he gradually understands why others always treat him like a child.
Because he has always been like that. A child filled with ignorance and someone who didn’t even know how naive he is in front of everyone.
Everyone is right. He didn’t owe anyone his life, so why would he always ’had’ to give everything? It wasn’t his fault to be born luckier than them, was it just because of that he has to give up everything? To give way when even though he doesn’t want it?
He Yan’s heart grew firm day by day and the passion to express his emotions in front of the stage made his heart burn in anticipation.
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On the stage, He Yan stood in the middle of the stage to officially begin the performance. He was wearing a white satin robe with gold colors inlaid on every of his clothes. His blonde hair was curtained like style and he looks quite more mature this time.
Around him lies a bright large green bermuda grass. The fresh wind enveloped the whole stadium as the warmth from the rays of the sunlight brightened the venue. Just like what he has always been, He Yan perfectly creates an atmosphere full of bright and clean.
"A world with blues and green
With the warm sunlight and wind kissing my cheeks..."
He Yan’s eyes are closed as he begins the song with a soft tone. His lips were gently smiling and he was radiating with an intimate feeling that gave a reassuring caress from someone.
"I put my heart with an open hands
Lending you the warmth that never ends..."
Then he slowly opened his eyes. The corner of his eyes slowly turns red and the once bright brown orbs slowly turn mist as if the sun in front of them learns to cry— no longer as bright and happy like he always gave.
"I was wrong to treat you like my own
Now you’ve put thorns around my soul..."
A lone tear suddenly fell from his right eye and before the audience could feel the shock and heartache at the sudden emotional scene, the bright venue turned upside down. Lightning was seen behind the cloud, the green grass slowly withered and the warm wind turned icy cold.
"Why when I put my life in your hands
You still dared to hurt me?"
Different from the tone filled with gentleness, even if He Yan’s voice was still soft like a whisper, it now caressed a tiny whimper of an agony that he never understands.
The comfort that the audience once felt earlier turned like needles piercing their hearts as they watched the young man fell into confusion and worry. He Yan’s movements were a bit slow as he turned and tilted his head up as if he was asking the sky about the question that was buried inside him.
"Otherwise if I laid all myself to you
Would you still dare to hurt me?"
At this moment, the God of goodness felt desperate as he pleaded to the humans to give all of himself so they won’t hurt him. But it was not heard— no one listened.
Thus day by day, darkness slowly emerges inside his heart, taking root to the once clean and pure God.
A large dark mist covered the whole venue, engulfing the bright landscape and even the young man in the middle. In the next moment, a figure of another young man appears.
Xing Ren was also wearing a black satin robe with red color on every hem of his clothes. His temperament is very contrasting to the usual that everyone knows. If He Yan was like a summer turning into cloudy weather, Xing Ren was like a calm weather turning into a storm.
His eyes were gloomy as he silently lurked behind He Yan from the beginning of the performance, looking with his eyes filled with injustice and jealousy to the God that everyone always chooses.
However, seeing the God of goodness being repeatedly manipulated and turning into a being filled with despair and agony, a cold sneer appeared on his lips.
To make the matter worse, his hands formed a black mist and it slowly drifted towards the young God, letting the darkness take root inside the pure heart.
Like a snake waiting for its prey, the God of evil waited and waited until the bright world that the God created turned upside down.
And that’s when he stands up and leisurely strode towards the young man. His confidence radiates as if no matter what will happen today, he will win.
"Haven’t I always told you?
That there’s always a lie beneath the truth..."
Same as his temperament, Xing Ren’s voice also turned icy with a bit of hoarseness, erasing the gentleness he always carries.
"Your warmth was clearly just for a facade
To deny the darkness that has always been there..."
Wasn’t that what he always says to He Yan? That all the goodness that he always gave towards others will never be reciprocated with the same thing. No matter how genuine he is, other people would never do the same for him.
For him, this role was also the biggest position that he had to take. Aside from that, Xing Ren had always avoided this type of genre because he knew that he was not a person like that.
He loves calm, stillness and peace— never the havoc, chaos and war of his emotions.
Thus when this song was assigned to them, his heart wavered with anxiety.
How to do this?
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