F-Rank Soul Eater-Chapter 37: Noble’s Trauma

Chapter 37: Noble’s Trauma
While poverty was the primary nozzle used by the empire to water the common people with negative emotions like hunger, despair, greed, jealousy, and selfishness.
They cultivated trauma.
Refined. Controlled. Emotionally concentrated trauma, tailored specifically for their children.
Yes. Trauma was planned.
Ivory explained that each noble family had a special method by which they operated.
Ivory explained that every noble family possessed its own method.
Some specialized in identity fracture. Others in existential pressure, conditional affection, or absolute isolation.
Of course, because these induced traumas were controlled from the birth of the child to the ripe age for Soulbounding, they helped to create more... stable bonds.
In certain cases, the possibility of choosing a Soul of significant strength was possible.
However, that was a subject for another time.
Of course, the children of these noble houses did not know that they were lab rats until they were of age and trained to repeat the same process to their own children, therefore regurgitating the trauma to the next
unfortunate
generation.
Ivory explained that her family, a Viscount house descended from two former baron lineages, employed two primary methods.
The first was isolation of the ward from any form of parental care.
A generally set time for procreation was made, and therefore all children of that generation were born around the same time. Sometimes, they could be accurate enough to all be born in the same week.
After which mothers were separated from their children, and handed to caregivers
But even these caretakers were rotated every two weeks, ensuring no lasting bond could form.
Psychologically, two weeks was enough time for attachment to begin.
Which made it the perfect time to sever it.
This process was repeated throughout their lives, until the age of ten.
At this age, children become used to not having bonds with people. However, while this is the initial goal, it is not the desired end result.
One could say that they are half-baked.
The second method was to introduce a variable, one that will really allow the trauma sink in.
A pet.
Pets ranged from different animals, small to big, tamed to wild.
The children were required to hunt and kill the animal’s parents, then raise the orphaned offspring themselves.
They were instructed not only to feed and protect their own pet but also to sabotage and destroy the pets of their siblings.
Yes.
The aim was to care for yours while trying to end the pets of your brothers and sisters.
Those that had their pets killed were severely punished publicly.
This further created more isolation and a lack of trust for each other.
An isolation, except from your pet.
Ivory explained that the bond formed during this phase was often the purest love a noble child would ever experience.
And then when they were sixteen years of age, the ripening occurred.
At this point of her explanation, Soren noticed something: her eyes seemed... distant.
Like she was reliving the moment more than she was telling him about it. Her fingers moved subconsciously, tracing lines on the squared window.
Unlike commoners, the qualification exam and the Touching Glass Ceremony are performed on the same day.
For her, the Ivory noble family called it the ripening.
On the day of the qualification exams, they were required to slaughter their pets and present their heads.
"My pet—no, my..." She muttered a name, too soft to hear, as if she wanted to tell Soren, but her tongue hesitated uttering the name. As if it would resurrect memories she did not want to give up.
Soren watched her attentively—enough to not make a sound. He even went a step further to quiet his breathing as much as he could, not interrupting her moment.
Her fingers shook, and one hand tightened around her waist as if craving comfort.
Soren could see it clear as day. Even her training as a Soul Mecha Pilot could not hide the vulnerable humanity masked by habitual perfection.
"... I had to cut his head and present it—my qualification to be Soulbounded."
Subconsciously, Soren’s fists tightened.
What kind of sick...thing was this?
Soren knew what it felt like to lose someone you love.
Even though many days had passed for him, Machos dying in his arms was still clear as day.
It was still the most devastating emotional ache he had ever felt.
At that moment, there was nothing he would not have given to have Machos back.
That was his most cherished person in the world.
At least he was lucky to still have people like Pencil and Tommy.
But Ivory, she had... no one.
Yet, she had to look her most cherished in the eyes, move the blade across their neck, and then present the head as a gate fee to a future planned for her long before she was born.
Surely, such a thing will shatter any person.
A tear slipped at the corner of her eye. She turned away, wiping it with well-practiced elegance.
She looked back at Soren, remembering she was giving a lesson.
"I carried... my emotion of loss and fed it to my shade. It produced incredible results for me when learning the Forms." She added, feigning that smile again.
Soren wanted to say something--anything, but the words did not come.
She suddenly turned around. "Now, you know it. I hope this much helps you with your ... assignment." She moved her head again, holding it back.
No doubt, unlocking old memories had poked a hole in a well-built dam.
"If you will excuse me, I have matters that need my attention." She turned to leave.
"Wait..." Soren called to her.
She paused. Surprised.
Even he did not know why he stopped her. Maybe it was just
Misery, finally finding company.
But he really did not want her to leave.
"Do... you really have to?" He muttered—words that seemed to ooze out of his lips before he could stop them.
She walked up to him, one step at a time, then she leaned in—looking into his deep brown eyes.
"I... I have already given it my all. There is nothing else... to lose." She sighed. "Besides, I must ensure someone takes responsibility."
Her fingers threaded into his hair. "Oh... how pitiful."
She turned, walking away. "Remember to be in the lesson area by 18:00 for your First Form evaluation." She reminded him.
The automatic doors opened, but she paused for a second, as if reluctant to leave.
It was only after the doors closed behind her that she let herself breathe easy. ’Why the hell did I tell him all that?’
She took a deep lungful of air, calming her mind.
She turned to her right.
Bloodshine.
She stared at Ivory with a kind of territorial hostility. Like Ivory was trying to touch something she had already declared hers.
Ivory giggled a bit, and then she walked away.
Meanwhile, Soren’s mind was a mess. There was a lot to unpack.
Ivory’s story was an intense one. Even now, his heart beat heavily in his chest.
But he forced the tears back. It was not that she was not deserving—she was, pitifully so.
That was why he had to do this.
However, certain answers had been made clear.
For example, he now understood why she used instructor Marcus.
It was so that all blame could be pushed to him. This would allow her the opportunity to still remain as an instructor within the academy.
Such terrifying planning.
Secondly, he now knew why the other cadets had gathered at the cafeteria and not the lesson area.
Ivory must have tampered with the communication system on the train.
Still, she had particularly told him to be in the lesson area and not the cafeteria. It could only mean one thing.
In her initial plan, Ivory did not want him dead.
But why!?
And lastly,
He might have just figured out how to get his First Form.
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