Reverend Rizzsanity-Despairing Hearts Think Alike

Reverend Rizzsanity-Despairing Hearts Think Alike

“Did the higher-ups already relay the truth regarding my body?” Bai Shou cut through the silence. She noticed Shu Zhe’s hand momentarily flinching, her lips still sealed against the mouth of Bai Shou’s gourd. Of course, it wasn’t the same one filled with spring water, but actual wine. All other empty gourds besides the white one that Bai Shou had handcrafted, which was returned to being tied to her waist, were piled next to the duo.
“Or did I accidentally embarrass myself and give away the things you weren’t aware of?”
Shu Zhe finished her sip and exhaled warmly.
“You should learn to beat around the bush the slightest bit…
Brother
Bai Shou.”
Bai Shou scoffed a chuckle, her gaze wandering towards the small pile of gourds.
“A few more gourds then.”
And that’s what happened. Shu Zhe seemingly ignored the momentary interruption and calmly accompanied Bai Shou in drinking her considerable reserve of wine despite having confessed her indifference towards the recreational liquid beforehand. The weight of the silence would crush many ordinary men and women, but Bai Shou and Shu Zhe didn’t mind quietly staring and measuring each other.
Their lips met constantly on the gourd’s mouth.
It was quite amusing. Bai Shou held the Ten Ancient Sects in very high regard. The benefits she had accumulated since joining the organization were outstanding enough. And had she not attracted the Gu Immortals’ attention, Bai Shou might have also dipped her toes in the gracious pool of married female gu masters married to the elders to amass even more using her trait.
So, seeing the leader of the pack trying to figure out the way to seduce her was indeed amusing.
“Yes, I did know the truth about your condition. The use of the Yin Rotation Gu, correct?” Shu Zhe answered after a while. “But today you offered to be the friendly ear. It’s hardly gracious to make my woes all about you.”
“I apologize.”
“Hmm.” Shu Zhe glanced at Bai Shou’s waist. “I’ve been curious about that gourd. What do those symbols mean?”
“It wasn’t going to be about me, Senior Sister.”
“It’s not. It’s about my curiosity. You won’t deny me such trivial answers, right?”
‘Trivial…’
Bai Shou gently traced a hand over the gourd’s surface, her fingers brushing across the golden sun and the white lotus.
Trivial…
It was indeed trivial, Bai Shou thought. Her issues paled in comparison to the mechanism of heaven and earth. Her confusion and inner conflict meant nothing to the schemes she had to hatch for growth and survival. After all, she will have hope to realize the truth beyond the fog of bewilderment as long as she lives. It might not be a minute later or maybe not a day later. But someday.
“This is a golden sun.” Bai Shou hummed. “It was the beginning and the end.”
“And this white lotus was the end and the beginning.”
“Beginning and end for what?” Shu Zhe blinked.
“A ghost.” Bai Shou shrugged.
“Ah, your mentor?”
Bai Shou chuckled, her hand leaving the gourd and tracing the locket around her neck. “You guessed it right, Senior Sister.”
“Hmm.”
Shu Zhe’s eyes followed down, observing the gourd again. But she stopped asking about it.
“Tell me something, Junior Brother. Do you not wish to revert your body? Or did you get used to the feminine form?”
“I do want to get my original body back. But the demon who cursed me to this form is dead.” Bai Shou took a swig from the gourd before exhaling loudly. “I killed him.”
“There are still options, Junior Brother. The Yin Rotation Gu was used on you. In your body lies a method to reverse the changes. Of course, if you contribute to the sect enough, one of the Supreme Elders might also assist you.”
“Contributions?” Bai Shou smirked. “What kind?”
“Certainly not the kind that forces you to kill talented disciples.” Shu Zhe shook her head with a tired sigh. “Yang Pao does not have battle strength to replace Wang Nan. The Sect’s southern region will experience a period of turmoil as other rank 5 outer disciples try filling Wang Nan’s position for more benefits.”
“Of course,” Bai Shou began. “They stand to gain more benefits if they just enter the evaluation examinations and advance to the ranks of inner and elite disciples.”
“But the seven of you will not do that.” Shu Zhe concluded. With Wang Nan gone, there were only seven rank 5 outer disciples, including Feng Bo and Yang Pao.
“It’s understandable,” Shu Zhe nodded. “The promotion involves passing the small examination held every three years. The small, middle, and large examinations all test the disciples’ skills instead of cultivation. So, it’s more difficult for a rank 5 gu master to pass these tests because the difficulty they encounter surpasses the challenge expected from a rank 2 or rank 3 gu master.”
Bai Shou nodded.
“Yes. You are right, Senior Sister. All of us are afraid of the challenge and failing, while a junior with lower cultivation might surpass us. Such a loss of face must be dreadful.”
“Something tells me you’re more aware, Junior Sister.” Shu Zhe took the wine from Bai Shou’s hand, their fingers momentarily brushing each other. “I conversed with a few elders before this meeting. Elder Ya thinks highly of you. However, it was Elder Di Qing’s words that caught my attention.”
Shu Zhe took a moment and drank from the gourd for a bit longer before tossing it into the pile.
“Ever since Le Tao and Di Qing grew intimate, I’ve wanted to have one conversation with the woman.”
“Should you be telling me all this?”
“To a friendly ear? Yes. We talked about many things. Your name also came up. Elder Di Qing says you are suffering.”
Bai Shou blinked.
“Suffering?”
“Yes,” Shu Zhe answered. “She says you suffered a terrible loss. And she suspects it was not a financial loss but something else.”
The Chained Wanderer frowned before inquiring.
“Why did you discuss me?”
“Because I exchanged you for Le Tao.”
“Oh, like a toy.”
“Like an asset.”
Shu Zhe leaned forward.
“Le Tao will not forgive me for the things I did. I broke his trust by colluding with his enemy. But he also couldn’t leave my camp without certain vows dissolved. So, I let him go to Di Qing’s side after taking you from them.”
“All that without my permission.” Bai Shou snickered, slurring her words ever so slightly. “Perhaps you also offended me, Senior Sister. My wrath is a terrible thing to behold. Wang Nan would have attested to it had he not experienced it.”
“I’ve never made a loss in dealings with my peers and equals. I didn’t make a loss by giving Le Tao up either.”
“Flattery will only get you my body, Senior Sister. Not my heart.”
“And what will you exchange your heart for?” Shu Zhe questioned, her gaze growing intense.
Bai Shou grew quiet before leaning back. Staring at the cave’s ceiling, she shook her head.
“What I
need
is forever lost. All that is left are
wants.
”
“And that would be?”
“For you to tell me your true purpose.” Bai Shou lowered her head and met Shu Zhe’s intense gaze. “I want gu worms for my research. I want to heal you and understand the dao I chase. I want to ascend. I want to live. I want to learn the things I still don’t comprehend. There are nights that I think about having you. There are as many nights I do not sleep as there are nights I want to. Go on, Senior Sister. Pick anything. Which want of mine will you fulfil? What do you want in return for the heart that will be of no use?”
“Is that why you drink so much?” Shu Zhe punctuated her words with the softness Bai Shou had almost forgotten. For a moment, Bai Shou could see Shang Xin Ci sitting across him. And behind her—holding her sleeve—was Bai Lin, asking her to stay the night just this once.
“I drink to understand love.” Bai Shou smiled. “A wisdom path gu master like you must know about it, right?”
“I always wondered why someone as spiritual as Verdant Great Sun agreed to drink the four wines and limit the understanding of something as complex as love.”
Bai Shou retrieved a jar of wine. She unceremoniously unsealed the lid and drank from its wide mouth.
“I now know, wine is all he had.”
“And are you Verdant Great Sun?” The corner of Shu Zhe’s eyes twitched as Bai Shou recalled her fall. How her wings shattered, and she plummeted to a certain death in a certain blessed land.
“No. I’m alive.”
“And you cannot understand love from wine, Junior Sister.”
“I cannot?”
“Would you die for wine?”
Shu Zhe took Bai Shou’s silence for what it was: a refusal.
“Then you do not love wine.”
“So, love is selflessness?”
Shu Zhe grew quiet. They continued drinking for a few minutes before the former answered.
“Love is selfishness. There isn’t a thing I wouldn’t do if it meant my father’s survival.”
“And Elder Le Tao? Did you not love him?”
“He was my husband. He loved me briefly until he realized I could not love him back.”
‘Sweet, bitter, scorching, heavenly, freedom, sacrifice, and now selfishness.’ Bai Shou noted internally. The first four were lessons from the Legends of Ren Zu. Meanwhile, it was
Mo Yan
who spoke about love being a sacrifice and freedom.
See? Complex.
There was no one word for love.
“How can you be selfish and make a sacrifice if it's a sacrifice that you desire?” Bai Shou chuckled, feeling puzzled.
“Perhaps you will find an answer someday.”
“A terrible hour is upon us, Junior Brother.” Shu Zhe sighed. “And I wanted you by my side because I valued your…”
“Talents?” Bai Shou laughed.
“Weakness. You are vulnerable, Junior Brother. I’ve realized that you are painfully self-aware of your helplessness. It is because of this self-awareness that you are blind to everything you do not see, because you believe such things do not exist.”
“Such are the things another helpless person would say to sway the weak-hearted, Senior Sister.”
“My words are meant to sway those riddled with despair, you wretched thing.” Her words contradicted the softness and empathy oozing from her voice.
“I will heal you.” Bai Shou sighed. “I will help you. But that’s due to the good in my heart, Senior Sister.”
“I don’t need anyone good. You will be mine in exchange for everything that keeps you up at night. You want me, so you will have me. You want to ascend, so you will reach that stage with my support. The things you do not understand will be my mission to make more comprehensible. You wanted to know my purpose, right?”
Shu Zhe leaned forward, setting aside the jar of wine.
“I do not desire the position of the sect leader. It is merely a means to an end. Like you, I stay awake at night. Like you, I want to ascend. I want to chase the dao while simultaneously losing my mask and resting briefly. I’m tired, Junior Brother.”
Her drunken breath kissed Bai Shou’s lips.
“Like you, I dream of someone capable of helping me achieve all that.”
“Was Elder Le Tao not capable?”
“He, too, was a means to an end.”
“And that is the fate you want me to share with Elder Le Tao?”
“No.” Shu Zhe reached out to cup Bai Shou’s face. “I, too, want you.”
“For how long?” Bai Shou whispered as she tilted her head.
“As long as you remain capable and useful.”
“Don’t lie to me, Senior Sister. Would you have dropped Le Tao had he stopped being capable?”
Shu Zhe paused. While she conspired with Nu Wu, it was due to desperation. However, everything was out in the open now. There was no need to hide her injuries or feign superiority. The only way to maintain her position was to use the tried-and-true method of scheming against her enemies.
“I wouldn’t have. But he didn’t love me, Junior Brother.”
“And here I am, not understanding it.”
“That is why I am.” Shu Zhe exhaled hotly, her mask briefly slipping.
“One last thing, Senior Sister. Do you want Bai Shou or your Junior Brother?”
“Take a guess, Bai Shou. What have I been referring to you as?”
Shu Zhe suddenly felt Bai Shou transform into an intense source of heat and power.
“Thirty minutes will be hardly enough,” Shu Zhe hummed as she pulled back and eyed the Little Giant Emperor.
“Already calculated the limits of my transformation, eh?” Bai Shou laughed,
his
voice deep and raw.
“That and more. I have a strategy that begins with the auction. And I don’t expect to share my life with another man without learning the ropes.”
Bai Shou blinked.
“Surprised?”
Shu Zhe’s expression steadily eased into something more natural until her smile turned inviting.
“Yes.”
“That is why I mentioned thirty minutes being unsatisfactory. Don’t expect such events to become a regular thing. I’m often busy.”
Bai Shou leaned forward after a shrug.
“And.” Shu Zhe pressed the giant back with the tip of her finger against his chest.
“We will marry tomorrow.”
Bai Shou’s lips momentarily parted before he sighed.
“So, it wasn’t a recruitment interview but a marriage interview.”
“I greatly desire people with a friendly ear.”
“So easy, Senior Sister? We’ll do something about that after I’m your husband.” Bai Shou scoffed and gently held the hand extended towards him. “But can you endure another loveless marriage? I’m a lost man who only has research and wine to live for.”
“I have no doubts in my ability to teach. Don’t worry, Junior Brother. You’ll be a respectable man capable of feeling love and many other emotions once I’m done with you.”
“I’ll do my best to be a good… no, you do not want good as I recall.”
Bai Shou leaned down, his rough lips instantly sealing Shu Zhe’s as her eyes widened briefly. Even without using a gu worm, Shu Zhe was used to keeping her expression in check.
“I’ll be your worst student ever.”
He whispered, his quick-wittedness remaining an arousing quality for the desperate wisdom path sect leader.
“Let’s help each other,” he continued. His hands looped around Shu Zhe, his palms needily pulling her into his chest as she exhaled in relief. “I don’t want to be alone another night, Senior Sister.”
“We won’t be alone.” She promised, her hands reaching up to cup his cheeks as they shared a slow and relieving kiss.
<<<>>>
Emotions did not let the duo get carried away because deep down, there weren’t many feelings held for one another. It was a negotiation. Even now, Bai Shou and Shu Zhe were locked in a fierce struggle.
“Like this?” Shu Zhe spoke with slight breathlessness. As her olive skin flushed, her eyes betrayed no embarrassment or heat. The sect leader’s fingers, however, tightly held Bai Shou’s collar. Their forms hid in the warm mist released from the ancient scars littering the giant’s body.
“You can do better, Senior Sister.” Bai Shou chuckled, sealing Shu Zhe’s lips for the umpteenth time while enduring a hit of strange nostalgia as she watched a string of words visible in the corner of her eyes.
[Instructive Makeout (Bronze):
Kissed Shu Zhe for the first time. Parties involved—Host and Shu Zhe. Rewards stored.
]
The trait.
‘It’s not even a repeatable one.’ Bai Shou briefly lamented. He always expected this to happen. His trait relied mainly on the social difference between him and the target. It just so happens that one’s cultivation rank was the major classification for social hierarchy in the Gu World. As Bai Shou advances, his trait would lose its effectiveness!
Here the giant was, making out with an Ancient Sect’s Sect Leader! Yet, it only earned Bai Shou a bronze reward.
Conversely, Bai Shou would have never gotten the reward in the first place had he not been a rank 5 gu master.
Their tongues overlapped as Bai Shou felt Shu Zhe squirm in his arms.
“Your hands feel rough.” Shu Zhe observed, her gaze flicking up to meet his. “They feel nice.”
“Thank you.”
“You are quite experienced. How many partners did you have before me?”
Trusting Shu Zhe to not loose her shit by the truth and emboldened by a sense of reckless frivolity after everything he hoped he didn’t survive, Bai Shou smirked.
“I stopped counting a long time ago, Senior Sister. But you will be my second wife.”
“Did your first marriage end peacefully?” Shu Zhe inquired.
“As your instructor in these matters, I suggest not asking these things during such heated moments.”
“So, it was a tragedy.”
Bai Shou exhaled with slight frustration.
“She passed away.”
He let go of Shu Zhe instead of continuing and slumped on the mattress lying on the ground.
“I’m well aware what mentioning a tragedy does to a charged moment.” Shu Zhe sighed softly, slowly crawling up to Bai Shou. “But I seek a person who can push through everything. Do you understand?”
“Oh, I can push through everything.” Bai Shou scoffed as he maintained the transformation. “As your husband, it will be my sacred duty to ensure your day ends on a bright note every day, regardless of the circumstance.”
“Oh?” Shu Zhe lifted an eyebrow as she lay beside Bai Shou on her side. Her messy state caused the collar of her robe to slip past her weight-bearing shoulder.
“Yes.” Bai Shou smiled. “If your day is stressful, it would be my job to help you unwind. You are a wisdom path gu master. I can only imagine how many things you think about and scheme. All that stress… just using the gu worms to deal with all that will be overlooking my talents.”
“And how will you do that? There might be moments where we don’t meet for weeks.”
“Then I will track you down.”
“What if I’m in a meeting with the elders? Their current agitated state will force me to increase the frequency of the gathering.”
“I will barge into the meeting.” Bai Shou claimed. He reached for her hand. “I will hold your hand like this. Oh, and I will toss Le Tao a smug look. But after all that, I will drag you with me and become your friendly ear all over again.”
Shu Zhe suddenly let out a soft chuckle.
“Why don’t you strip me down and have me in everyone’s presence if it’s ruining my reputation that you’re after?”
“And I will make you laugh.”
Shu Zhe paused and stared at Bai Shou.
“For however long our understanding remains, I will keep you happy. Marriage is… sacred to me. I like to snatch sacred things.”
He chortled.
His hand carefully traced Shu Zhe’s face.
“I will learn many things about you and use them against you for good.”
Bai Shou had almost forgotten the sense of electricity he could charge in the air between him and his partner as he held Shu Zhe’s undivided attention. He felt her wandering mind go still and concentrate on him and what he had to say.
“If you let me, I will never willingly allow any harm to come your way.”
“I’m this sect’s leader, Junior Brother.” Shu Zhe offered a short smile, slightly leaning against his touch. “Not many things can threaten me.”
“If you let me.” Bai Shou repeated.
“And you don’t understand love?” Shu Zhe slightly sneered.
“Tragic, isn’t it?” Bai Shou smirked. “Of all the people to leave confused, heaven chose me. Quit the fair thing, that one.”
Shu Zhe hummed.
“True. Now? What’s next? Do I get on top of you? How many thrusts should I expect per minute?”
“Right. So, the first thing we do is strip. Then, we will engage in foreplay for your comfort.”
“Both of our comfort.” Shu Zhe corrected.
“Hmm. And then we fuck.”
“That’s it?”
“That’s it. Of course, spontaneity is a thing in these matters and often valued and appreciated as long as we understand each other’s limits.”
Shu Zhe considered his words as her gaze swam down onto the tent pitched within Bai Shou’s pants.
“What position will ensure satisfaction for both of us in foreplay?”
Bai Shou blinked before pointing at his face as he grinned mischievously.
“Sit on me.”
***
Alternate Title:
WE ARE SO BACK; The Bronze; Rizzing the Sect Leader; Bai Shou Used Hyper Rizz *
It was Super Effective Against Wisdom Path Divorcee
*; Exchanging Men; Di Qing and Shu Zhe’s Next Conversation Going to be About Their Experiences; Shu Zhe: You Exist, Therefore I Am AM; Drinking; Heaven’s Unchosen; Shu Zhe: Why Not Strip Me Infront of All Elders? *
Bai Shou: As You Wish
*; Shu Zhe was the Princess Bride All Along; When Chained Wanderer Meets Unchained Vagabond; The Giant Hits Again; Sit on Me; Shu Zhe Calculating Sex Like Chest Compressions; How Many Thrusts Per Minute?; Shu Zhe is Gunning for Hours; Strength and Wisdom Unites in Holy Matrimony; Bai Shou’s Sacred Duty; Marriage Interview; A Couple Meant for Ascension; Shu Zhe Likes a Friendly Ear in her Junior Brother; Jumping from Ordinary Disciple to the Sect Leader’s Consort; Yes, Bai Shou was Truly the Waifu All Along
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